A Girl Named Catz

for everyone, including yours truly! But the weekend is now here and it’s going to be a good one! Why? Because I want it to be! Now I can’t control how people are going to act nor how events or circumstances will turn out, but I can have a good attitude about everything and I know that that effects whatever is around me. Sometimes it isn’t easy , even I have a hard time some days keeping positive, but over time, with practice, it does get easier and seem like less work :) You just have to stick with it.
Now I have a birthday tomorrow, and I really don’t make a big deal out of them, I think I stopped caring about celebrating them when I hit the big 30. But I decided the other day, that I’m going to enjoy my birthday tomorrow, I’m even planning on getting together with a few friends and hang out at Style tomorrow night (around 9:30-10 if you want to join us!). That’s a big deal for me to do that, I have never been comfortable doing anything for myself, my happiness only comes from doing things for others, so tomorrow night I am going to make sure my friends have a slammin time at Style nightclub! That will really make my birthday for me :)
I have been doing a lot of soul searching and self-improvement the past 3 months, including working out with Tony Horton’s 10 Minute Trainer (once a day for 5 weeks) and sticking with it!

It’s been since December since I got myself some jeans…. well they started falling off me around the end of January. Well it got to the point where I only have 1 pair of jeans that actually fit me now. So I decided to brave it tonight and go buy my self one pair of new jeans. Now keep in mind I had no idea where I was at size -wise. Those pants that no longer fit were 10’s. So I wandered around the store for a good 20 mins totally avoiding the pants and sticking to the tops. Finally an awesome sales girl, whose name I didn’t get to find out, came up to me and asked if she could help me. Now normally I say no and leave LOL. I hate shopping for myself.. absolutely hate it. I have a hard time buying me clothes, so I never go clothes shopping. Anyways this time I said yes, and told her I was looking for jeans but wasn’t sure what would look good with the top I had picked out. So she very happily took me to the jeans then asked the question I was afraid of “What size are you?” I started at her like a deer in headlights and quietly answered “I honestly don’t know”. She smiled and looked me over and said “I think you are a 5″ I started laughing, I told her she was sweet and to grab an 7 or 8. She asked me if I was sure I said yes I. So she grabbed 4 pairs of random sized jeans for me to try. Now I am used to baggy, but what is in style right now are skinny jeans. I stood there in the dressing room looking at them thinking “there is no way I am fitting into any of those!” Well I was scared to try them on, because what If I haven’t really lost that much around the waist? What of I have only gone down 1 size and it just seems like more cus of the looseness of my other pants? I decided to just do it and see where I am at. So, I go for the gold and grab the 7’s. As I pulled them on I was like “god they’re going to get stuck at my thighs” …But they didn’t. They slid right on! I almost started to cry! I was back in my old size after 4 years in 5 WEEKS!!! And boy are they skinny. I did buy them and my cute top which I will be bravely premiering at Style tomorrow night . All the way home I felt different. I was totally amazed and proud of myself for sticking with working out and see what all my hard work did for me! Honestly makes me feel like I can conquer anything put in front of me. I feel different. Not just physically, but mentally and spiritually. Silly isn’t it? Well maybe not… my next goal is to finally quit smoking. and I am going to do it. I’m not giving myself a time limit, but I am going to look into various techniques (non-prescription related) and see which one will work with me. Not for me, but with me and my smoking mindset. I’ll keep you posted on the details when I get started, which is tomorrow. ;) I’m on a roll might as well take advantage lol.
There is nothing you can’t do, and anything that you see as impossible is only that way because that’s how you see it, not how it really is. Now is the time to get things started, so why are you sitting here reading this? Go forth and start whatever you have been wanting to start! Be it working out, diet, quit smoking, go out and meet people, get a job, whatever you’ve been dreaming about and start getting that blueprint for your dreams out of your head and out in front of you and start laying the groundwork!!! Remember to keep your mind, eyes, and ears open to all opportunities too! The door to your dreams is open but you have to walk through the door and beyond to make it REALITY!!!!

Until next time…
Much love,
Catz